…..currently reading “Letters to a Young Sister: DeFINE Your Destiny” by Hill Harper. this book is making me think about a lot of things. Hill asked us young women to “sketch” what we wanted our lives to look like. Although pen & paper is handy, i preferred to use tumblr since this is like my journal.

when i think about my future, i think how i am going to become a millionaire. in order for you to become a millionaire, you have to have multiple businesses. so i realize all of the talents that i possess and what i can do with these resources & gifts that GOD give me.

i want to be the real renaissance woman of my generation. many people might not understand that but i believe i was blessed with innate gifts. i want to be a novelist. i’m not sure where the story will come from but i know it will from some of my experiences as a young woman from a female perspective. in addition, i want to write books about people i have met along the way in conjunction to books about empowering young women.

i want to own a few different non-profit organizations. i want to have one for young women in the LGBT community who are unsure of what they should do in regards to planning to be self-sufficient in a world that might not be accepting of them. i also want to have own a non-profit organization that deals with young girls and having a mentoring program that allows them to see positive images of themselves.

i also want to own a nightclub/restaurant. i believe that the venue would be something that Baltimore has never seen. To the point where it would bring a different type of clientele back to Baltimore in addition with opening up another location in Atlanta and maybe NY and LA later. This establishment would show sophistication and things of this nature.

for some reason, i feel as though i will discover the next big computer thing. more so like the next twitter/facebook/etc. i’m not sure what it is yet but i feel as though i will be one of the next big tech things within the next 2-3 years. i keep thinking about various things and platforms and what could be useful and would be unique from everyone else. who knows, i might end up being an iPhone developer. you never know.

i definitely want to own an Apple Store downtown in Baltimore, MD. I think that would be one of the best things ever to be quite honest. I know exactly where I would put it and all of that nature. I definitely wouldn’t mind being in management for an Apple Store either. I would love to start off their but eventually, I would love to be in management. I would also like to have a regular 9-5 in the human services or counseling field. I think that is where I am most beneficial.

I definitely want to be financially sound. I want to be able to own my own home, my own car, my own businesses, etc. In this world, you have to be self-sufficient. Education wise, I want to obtain 2 masters: one in a human services or social work field. the other is business adminstration (mba). lastly, i want my Doctorate in Counseling, Human Services or Social Work, and I want a MBA Doctorate as well. I want to be healthy physically to a point where i don’t have to worry about illnesses and ailments in my family.

As far as my love life, i would love to be married in the next 2-3 years to the love of my live, S.J.W. I would also like to at least be having our first child within the next 2-3 years as well. I see us both being successful individuals which will make our marriage make us better people. I see us living in Atlanta within the next 3-4 years.

these are the sketches of my dreams. now, it is time to make them a reality.

-kristen xoxo

yesterday I was changed in the twinkling of an eye. today, I feel stronger, more empowered, and grateful for this new journey. still miss my love but I know this journey is not in vain.

time to laugh more, smille more, be grateful to GOD for life and just enjoy the simple and small things in life. I believe that this is truly the beginning of a new journey for me and I await it with open arms.

life has definitely thrown me some curves in the game. this time I am not prepared to play. I want to forfeit but I know I can’t let the team down.

each swing I feel that pieces of me ate let go in the wind. I wanna scream at the coach about what he is not doing but I know the only one I can blame is myself.

enduring the strike out but eventually I will connect and swing…..

many different emotions; failure, blame, confusion, uneasiness, lost, hopelessness, shame, anger, rage, darkness, hurt, pain, incomplete, inadequate……just to name a few.

will these feelings go away?? there is always sunshine after the rain. Right now, I am waiting on GOD to bring the rain, thunder, and lightening……

today has been a great day thus far. i feel that things will go great. goal = is to continue this for 40-45 days. think it will be worth the sacrifice. :)

needed change and clarity for many of life’s situations. GOD will bring me all of the information that i am seeking from him.

ready for a change. mentally. spiritually. emotionally. physically.

peace & blessings

kristen

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face. I eat my breakfast (2 eggs and 2 strips of bacon). Following the plans that I have sought for myself.

today, mental/physical/emotional/spiritual warfare begins. I know GOD is calling me higher and I need to be more obedient to his plans.

today is a day like no other and I will enjoy it!!

peace & blessings, Kristen

for some reason, i am very bored at the moment. i honestly think that it has to do with the fact that i have a lot more time on my hands.

today, i seek to challenge myself.

the end.

another good day that GOD allowed me to see. it was yet another very productive. continuing to learn more about myself on a daily basis. i realize that now this is the time where i need to show more vulnerabilities to myself and be my own #1 fan. had a wonderful conversation with mi esposa today and we put a lot of things in perspective just to continue with forward movement. i’m excited about today and anticipating tomorrow to create the blue prints for the future.

still continuing with the same short-term goals: gain a closer relationship with GOD, family (including my better half), and friends, maintain a healthier lifestyle (i.e. fitness & eating habits), prepare a plan to get back on track when school is back in session during the fall, obtain credit report to diminish 2 lowest credits, continue to spend more “me” time with self, create a better plan for short/long term organization, continue with being more honest with people & self and continue to work on beginning the business. i am challenging myself to not only this 21 day experiment but also a 60 day plan for health & wellness. i think a lot will change once i work from the inside to the out.

long term goals still remain the same: are all thee above but more descriptive. now i am in the basement system of my change. i have already started to eliminate unnecessary people or things via email and social networking sites. tomorrow i concur the clutter in my room and the clutter in my cell phones. i think this will left a BIG burden from me that i don’t realize exist.

back to the action again tomorrow. tomorrow is my 1st day back to the gym. eager to get in there and sweat it out :). time to write up my thursday thought and then have some “me” time.

be blessed.

~kristen

today was a very good day. it was very productive. i have learned a lot about myself and realize that i want a lot for myself. here is what i am hopping to obtain short-term:

gain a closer relationship with GOD, family (including my better half), and friends, maintain a healthier lifestyle (i.e. fitness & eating habits), prepare a plan to get back on track when school is back in session during the fall, obtain credit report to diminish 2 lowest credits, continue to spend more “me” time with self, create a better plan for short/long term organization, continue with being more honest with people & self and continue to work on beginning the business.

long term goals: are all thee above but more descriptive. since i am in the blueprint stages, i will continue to do snippets of goals each day.

can’t wait to get back to action tomorrow. long day ahead of me. going to write up my wednesday thought so that i can send them when i wake up.

be blessed.

~kristen

sitting in panera bread

feeling very Sex & The Citish. makes me want to write,

i love chai tea lattes. i love mi esposa. i love all of things in my possession right now. they make me smile :)

time to blog on wordpress.